May is Here!

How is it already more than a week into May! It's incredible and I cannot even believe it. I have not had a single second to post which goes to show what my Mays are always like. They are non stop crazy go get things done stop for a minute and realize it's already June. And so far that is exactly how it has been. WHoa. That's how I'm feeling. But it also stirs up that summer excitement in me along with the awesome weather and more time to do fun things. Although in this recovery process I must be honest so... I feel like maybe I'm slipping just a little because of the fact I'm so busy. It's not anything to do with the eating disorder, well kind of. It's not that I'm doing negative behaviors it's that I'm so busy my activity level has gone way up and I haven't been fully compensating for it through my meals and snacks. The most important part about this though, is that I recognized it and now I'm trying to be more aware of it and change it! I know that if I just keeping going on pretending this are fine I might have to stop doing some of the great and busy things I'm involved in right now. So this May, hopefully I will find more that a half second to post, but mostly I want to promise to myself to remember all the great opportunities I have right now and how I don't want to loose them. I will stay strong and when June gets here I will remind myself how I got through May and all of it's craziness! I have been working on a project with lots of old pictures and videos and I'm also adding in lots of quotes so I honestly have felt very inspired lately which is AWESOME! I am also proud of myself because I can deal with pictures from rough times that maybe I don't love, I can say "Ok I am not a fan of this one, it makes me too sad or it's too negative. So I just don't put it in. Easy as that. Who knew right? Well anyway, on to the next crazy day of May.
Ed, stay out of my head! And summer please please please fill the void....

Love,
Sophie Ana